Date: Wed Dec 1 09:48:38 PST 2004
Mood: sore in the back, tummy, kidneys
Breakfast: 1 bowl honey cheerios type cereal from trader joe’s
Yesterday I woke up and felt much better. The bleeding seemed to have stopped.
It’s the usual routine.
I was fine even up until lunchtime, and then I saw the Hansen’s soda in the fridge.
I do this EVERY month. I’ve not been able to stop myself. I saw the pop and since I felt better, I drank it with my lunch of shrimp and veggie stir fry and ramen noodles.
Within a half an hour, severe cramps set upon me and blood gushed forth and I had to stagger to the bathroom. Clots and the whole bit.
I popped a 500mg Vicodin and staggered back to the couch. I grabbed the pop can and read the ingredients: High Fructose Corn Syrup.
I wanted to gurgle “Corn Nuts” like in the movie Heathers, and fall face down on a glass table.
It’s the same fucking thing every month I do to myself.
I turned to my boyfriend, who was shocked that this happened so quickly, and I begged him to help me stop drinking pop for good. I explained the hormone system with the pituitary gland, the pancreas, the uterus, and how the hormones flow and regulate, and how the corn syrup sets it all off due to the glucose factor. I compared how quickly it all set in by saying, “give your diabetic dad some sugar cubes and watch him deteriorate in the same amount of time.” Only then did he understand how quickly the sugar works in the system, even to affect hormones.
As I’ve referenced before, any changes to blood sugar result in changes in the ways the uterus functions because the uterus is hormone-rich. See my discussions on this from my daily journal on Feb. 23, 2004 and Mar. 24, 2004.
I just included the above reference in my FAQ because *I* need to keep referring back to it so much.
So after I took the pain meds, I tried to get comfy on the couch and it just didn’t work. I paced the living room whimpering in pain, and then finally I warmed up the heating pad and went and laid down on the bed. I ended up falling asleep, and I didn’t get up for an hour or so.
The pain returned! WTF!!!
So I took ANOTHER vicodin. And then I was toast for the entire day.
I must note for the record however, something important regarding the corn syrup:
Before dinner, my boyfriend bought me some honey roasted peanuts. They were pretty tasty, but then I looked at the ingredients list to see what they had used to sweeten the peanuts.
High Fructose Corn Syrup.
I freaked, but get this – I didn’t get any cramps.
Later, after dinner, I had some pumpkin pie with Cool Whip. The Cool Whip contains High Fructose Corn Syrup.
But I didn’t get any cramps.
So I think I’ve determined that corn syrup in small amounts will not harm me, but drinking it in large syrupy carbonated pop amounts will make me want to go to the hospital, the pain is so bad.
Then again, I was full on drugged by that time. So next month I’ll experiment again if I remember.
Last night, largely due to the drugs, I even went to bed by 10pm. I’m usually not in bed before 1am.
I woke up this morning and once again, the bleeding has stopped, and so has the cramps. My lower back/kidneys are sore from all the pain meds, and my tummy hurts, too. I’m still quite tired.
We’ll see if george leaves me the hell alone today or not. I WILL DRINK NO POP.
Oh, also, yesterday was the start of Mercury Retrograde. I’ll blame Mister Mercury along with george for all my pain, even though it really is my fault.