sickness depression
This is about the time I get depressed as all hell for being bedridden. I spent all day in bed yesterday. By evening, my legs were twitchy because they’d been prone for too long.
Still, by the time my man was ready for bed, so was I. You’d think that since I slept all damned day, I’d be awake all night. Nope, not when I’m in pain, bleeding like a stuck pig, and on pain medication, no. I went right back to sleep and slept all night. Didn’t want to get up this morning with my man, but I did - can’t remember why - perhaps because I was birthing squid (passing clots) and it was quite messy.
All day again today I’ve been bedridden. Today I’ve also been cold, whereas yesterday I ran warm. Being cold while cramping just makes it that much worse - my back locked up and I almost threw my shoulder again, just by turning, because all my muscles are hunched and locked in protective mode and in shivering mode at the same time.
I really started off the morning in not so much pain. I was getting the astrology stuff set up to work on today. I called the labor board again and found out they ARE going to take the case, yay!!! I’m to get some paperwork this week and then I’ll make a journal entry all about the details. I went and made breakfast, and sat back down to work….
…And that’s when the pain hit.
Since late last night I’ve been passing a lot of clots. It’s “normal” by day two anyway.
The only work I did was personal work today - I dug through my childhood diaries last night and today, looking for any mention of my period and details as to the pain. I’m finding some good information and will share that once I have the long list ready for print.
In the meantime, my kidneys are sore from all the pain meds - I always get sore sides every month by day 2.5 from all the pain meds. I’m running out, too, so placed a call to my surgeon for more meds. However, I’m requesting Darvon now instead of Tylenol3.
I’ve just been on Tylenol3 for too long - a few years now - and I’m to the point of having to take TWO pills for the pain instead of one. And Tylenol is really really bad for the kidneys and liver. And as of this month, I’m nauseated when I take Tylenol3, and I get a stomach ache.
I wonder if I’m getting an ulcer from the pain meds. :(
The other thing I hate about Tylenol3 is that it always makes me itchy. My skin just crawls. I have nightmares, too.
I’d tried percoset but felt like I was gonna die because I couldn’t breathe. Codeine too surpresses my respiratory function, but not as much as percoset. With Codeine, I get worse nightmares than I do with Tylenol3.
And long ago, I stopped taking Aleve/Naproxen/Naprosyn because my body just didn’t respond to it. The pain just did not go away. And besides that, I read that it can cause strokes!
I dunno if Darvon is much better, honestly, but I want to try something else and see if that helps the pain. And of course, I’ll continue with the Chinese herbal medication again once I’m off all this pain med crap. I hate taking too much stuff together at the same time. So the Chinese meds are on hold until george passes, then I resume for a full month leading up to george again.