I Will Not Suffer In Silence

Woke up this morning and the pain was minimal. The bleeding was ramping up, but slowly. I got through the entire morning with very little pain, and then about 1:30pm it started, and grew like a wildfire.

This was one of those times that I didn’t have enough time to get to the medication before the pain became so much that I’d cry.
It went from consistent manageable mild pain to OH GOD I’M DYING within minutes.

Now I’m on the couch with a blanket, heating pad and laptop. The pain feels like searing hot knives twisting in my uterus. The pain radiates out to both of my hips, and down the fronts and sides of my legs, almost to my knees. This is ‘normal’ behaviour for the Endometriosis that I have.

I just had a lull in the pain and I’m holding my breath, trying to enjoy the lack of pain, waiting for the next wave to hit.

…yep and there it is, the next wave.

Gah. This is BAD. It’s been 20 minutes and the Darvocet still has not kicked in.

I made it through most of today before george arrived (he showed up on time, and during my friend’s wedding) and I’ve only had very minor cramps since his arrival!
I haven’t even needed any medication. It’s officially been a month that I’ve been on the Chinese herbal pills that my acupuncturist recommended, so maybe, just maybe, it’s starting to help. It might also help that I’ve been drinking tons of green tea lately, who knows.

So today was quite the success - my friend is now married, and we dropped her grandma off at the airport, and we zoomed off for a nice sushi dinner (poor grandma though, probably stranded there tonight, as her destination is snowed in! I saw the weather report when I got home. She’s quite the spry 88-year-old world traveler though, so I’m sure she’s 1. got a cell phone and 2. is just fine).

I’m still freezing, and tonight is supposed to be the coldest night so far this year, which doesn’t help my PMS/menstrual hormonal body temp whack. It’s currently 44F (about 6C) outside right now, and for California Bay Area people, that’s pretty cold. ;)

I hope tomorrow is still a better day and that I continue to have no pain. I’m not holding my breath, and I won’t be let down or devastated, but still, it’s always nice to hope.

Today was good - no pain, no inkling that george is on the way. However, I have been FREEZING for nearly a week now. I think part of that is having caught my man’s cold, but part of it too is premenstrual. I was outdoors or in drafty houses for about five hours today, so that didn’t help.

Now that I’m home, tonight is the coldest night of the year so far, and I’ve been shivering non-stop, even with the gas heater on. For Californians, getting into the 20’s (-1C) and 30’s (-6C) at night is like experiencing 10-below (-23C) for non-Californians. ;)

Tomorrow my friend gets married and I will be back at the drafty house for many hours. I’ve been popping lots of vitamin C and drinking my weight in green tea, so I’ve not gotten as sick as my man has been, thankfully. The bride’s mother also got the bug that’s going around and she was a wreck today, near tears because her throat and sinuses hurt so bad, and she’s afraid she’ll infect the guests visiting from Ireland.

George is due tomorrow, and I really really hope he’s late. I don’t want to be freezing cold and bleeding and in dying pain all at my friend’s wedding, PLZ K THX.

Currently it’s 42F (5C) outside, and 68F (20C) inside.
Just so ya know, I thrive at 78F (25C). So my teeth are chattering, waiting for the furnace to heat up the house. Too bad it’s all going to the ceiling and I can still feel the air oozing through the walls and windows, sliding down to the ground and freezing me from my toes on up.