the pain continues and the depression sets in
I took a shower around 4pm. i’d taken a tylenol3 around what, 1:30pm? So I should have been fine.
But no.
The cramps started up once again after I got out of the shower. And because I’d stopped taking the Chinese herbal pills this month due to pill overload, I now pay the price in the form of clots again.
I took Ibuprofen 600mg as soon as I got out of the shower, around 4:30pm. It kicked in within about 20 minutes, and the pain subsided. I felt bad that my honey was doing so much housework today, so I did some dishes. Very slowly. That’s all I did. And the cramping came back.
I tried to let the Ibuprofen continue to do its thing but that time had passed. Around 5:45pm, I took a Tylenol3. Now I wait for it to fully kick in (I have dizziness so it’s starting), and I’ve stopped moving around - I’m on the couch with dual heating pad action.
My rant for today is:
How the hell am I supposed to work on hobbies or side projects when I’m constantly in pain, waiting for the meds to kick in, and updating this journal as to what’s going on so that I have some sort of record for myself, the doctors, and others who go through this hell?
I don’t DO anything!!!! I sit here in pain and cry and/or whimper. I fall asleep continuously at the keyboard. I sleep half the day because of the pain and the medication. I do this for up to four days. Then when all the pain stops, I have to get back to work. There’s no more time for side projects. The time was used up by being in pain and in a daze on medication so that I could barely even update my journal.
So nothing extra and meaningful for me gets done in life. Nothing.
That’s my rant for today.