I Will Not Suffer In Silence

I was really out of it this morning and felt VERY weak. My friend came over and we went out to the backyard and sat in the sun for a bit. It felt really nice.

I had no pain or very little pain for much of the day!

I was very tired and weak but so happy to not be in pain, so around 4pm, another friend and I went out to Beverly’s. She drove me there in my car. While ambling through the aisles, I felt a gush and said ‘oh no’.

I told my friend we had to go - that I’d be in pain Real Soon Now.

I popped a Tylenol 3 on the way home, and when we got back home, I settled in on the couch, but my stomach was upset. I began to shake and feel nauseous. I told my friend that usually this is a bad sign.

I’d say within half an hour of being home, the pain set in (This is a long time compared to what happened to me last month when the pain slammed me).
I had gush first, then nausea, then slowly ramping up pain. Then the pain got worse and I got down on the living room floor to do the yoga ‘child’s pose’ like I’m instructed to do for the pain. It helped for mere seconds, then I’d have to sit up and slowly stretch out my torso so to avoid the pelvic and stomach region from clenching from the pain.

The living room floor was too hard, so I went into the carpeted bedroom and laid down on my back. This is when the pain level went through the roof, and my body began to really shake and quiver, and I nearly hyperventilated from the pain as tears streamed from my eyes.

My friend sat with me the entire time, holding my hand, asking if I would need anything, talking with me, BEING THERE.

She knows - she has Endometriosis, too. She had the same surgery I did and has had relief from it, thankfully. Although she’s got a cyst again, she says she’s not anywhere near the pain she used to be in.

I popped another Tylenol 3 and continued to just talk and breathe and cry. Finally after about half an hour, the pain passed and the drugs kicked in, and so we just laid there - she on the bed and me on the floor and then slumped partially on the bed - just talking. I thanked her for being there for me.

When my man came home from work, we deliberated on what food to get for dinner, since I’m in no shape to make dinner. My friend said she should get home, so my man drove her to the train station and went to pick us up some food from Boston Market… but they closed for the night! :(

So now he’s home and we’re trying to figure out what to do. We have plenty of food in the house but I can’t think up a meal - I’m in no shape. Food. I just need food. I’m so hungry I could eat my cat. DOOD JUST MAKE ME SOME FOOD SHEESH :p

Gah. Men.

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