Dreams, nausea, pain
My cat was running through the house like a madman, his claws scraping against the pergo flooring as he ran and turned corners.
This activity filtered into my dreams as I slept, and turned it into a dream. In the dream, I got out of bed and interrupted my cat’s races through the house. He screeched to a halt as I called his name in scolding fashion, and looked up at me. He’d been running from the bathroom through the living room and back again. Now we both stood in the tiny hallway, and he went over to the wall heater and sat down, and began shivering.
As he did this, I saw wet paw prints on the pergo flooring. I leaned forward and squinted at the floor to get a better angle - the wet and slightly dirty paw prints were all over the living room pergo and the trail led back to the bathroom, where my cat had been jumping into the bathtub, leaping out with wet paws, and tearing through the house. The floor of the bathtub was still pretty wet from the shower my fiance had taken before work this morning. As I was assessing all this, I yelled, something like, “were you running with wet feet through the house?” My cat looked severely guilty, and that’s when he took a seat on a flat, plaid, hairy catbed in front of the heater and began shivering, back paws sticking out as he sat all the way on his butt like a dog would do. His left paw was shaking as it stuck out from beneath him, because the rest of him was shivering cold from all the water play.
The dream ended with me feeling very nauseated and waking up because of it.
Most of the dream comes from truth - my cat really has done stuff like this. Except he didn’t end up shivering in front of the heater, nor do we have one of those flat plaid cat beds.
I was in the bathroom, contemplating throwing up and wondering what was going on with me GI wise, when the phone rang. It was my future stepmother-in-law. I let her babble into the answering machine - I’ll call her back later.
TMI ALERT
Back to wondering what’s wrong with me - I was very nauseous, and it felt like a major pain episode wanted to come on, except for the fact that I also felt very constipated and yet like I was about to have explosive diarrhea at any second. Could this be the flu on top of menses?
I eventually had a movement, and was constipated, and the colour was clay. This is BAD. This means I’ve got blocked bile ducts again, possibly from all the medication I’m taking right now for the endometriosis pain. I REALLY need to not fear that stone flush program and just go ahead with it.
I really need to remember the Chi Nei Tsang procedure as well. I don’t have $100 to spend on another visit to my practitioner right now, though.
Along with the colour of the feces, it stung my asshole badly, leaving my teeth chattering and making me more nauseous. I staggered with toilet paper to the tub and got some hot water on the toilet paper and applied it slowly, carefully, patiently to my arse. This is the best thing to do - it helps with the constriction of blood vessels and eases the pain as a result. It took a few applications before the stinging stopped, and then I staggered to find my heating pads.
Now I’m sitting on a warm heating pad, and this helps immensely. The nausea has faded. I’ve taken a Tylenol3 in case the uterine pain ramps up again, cuz nausea is usually a precursor to really big clots trying to pass through the cervix.
I had dreams and nightmares all day yesterday, too. It’s from the medication. My breathing gets restricted and I sound like I have apnea when I’m on Tylenol3 and trying to sleep. That’s why I have nightmares.
Currently I’m missing my friend perform an organ concerto. I’m very sad about this. This is the same friend who was suicidal a few months ago and trapped in New Mexico. He found a way back to the Bay Area and has been doing much better. I woke up with the nausea at the same time I needed to be getting ready to go see him in concert. There was just no way I’d be able to go. I had to go through that horrible episode, instead. And now I’m missing him play. :(
But ahhh, the drugs are kicking in. Soon I will be sleeping again and not having pain for awhile.
This is the first Tylenol3 of the day, but after all the hours I slept yesterday, I was still so exhausted today and was sleeping hard this morning. I shouldn’t be that tired when not on the Tylenol3. But it’s a symptom of my illness. I get that tired. My body shuts down.
The meds are making me tired now though. Back later.
