Blah.
This week is full on PMS week.
I hate the cold. This morning in Northern California, it was so cold that I had to go into the storage unit and dig out my ice scraper to scrape my car windows before I could drive to work. I also hate California winters because it always means ant invasions. We’ve had ants coming in from the interior walls for the past two days. Yesterday, it was the bathroom. This morning they found the kitchen and living room. On both occasions they were scouting - hadn’t found any food yet. However, since they tunneled into the kitchen, they were about to discover the cat food. I couldn’t let it go until I got home from work. So there I was at 6am cleaning floorboards and spraying toxic Raid ant killer. I really need to get the nontoxic stuff - I’ll have a look over at the hippy store on the way home from work tonight.
Yesterday I was zipping along home from work when for no detectable reason, traffic came to a halt at my usual exit. It took me 35 minutes just to go 1 mile before hitting the underground tunnel to my island town. Traffic was at a dead stop through much of the tunnel as well. Once I got through the tunnel, traffic resumed just fine. WHAT THE HELL.
The traffic delay was enough to throw off my entire night. I wanted to go straight home but I had to get some groceries for the week, and I knew my husband wasn’t going to want to go out and do my chores for me again, so I continued on like a brave soldier.
I about exploded in rage at the self-checkout at the grocery, when I couldn’t make all my groceries fit into the single recyclable bag I brought in. My face flushed red with the rage, but I stuck with my duty, because I need to eat through the week. I huffed out of the store. I still had one more store to go to but I said screw it and just went home, instead.
You know PMS is in full swing when you get home and sit down with a bag of cookies for dinner. *sigh*
Right now I’m at work and the baby is sleeping. It’s 68F in the house but to me, it feels like 40F. I’m freezing my ass off. I have my hoodie on and a blanket over me and I’m still getting goosebumps from how cold I am.
Today the pain is localised to the lower left front of my pelvic region - it’s a dull pain and not bad enough to warrant pain meds. I have a continual throbbing pain deep in both of my legs extending down to my knees. And my lower back is also hurting. I’ve been trying to do stretches for the past two days but it’s hard to want to stretch when I’m freezing cold and just want to fold in on myself.
I want the anger and rage PMS crap to stop now, plz. Just get it over with - just kill me with the pain already and let’s be done with this month.
Baby’s up, gotta go.