Feeling better
Wednesday night after writing my last journal entry, I was besieged with sudden sharp cramps. To my dismay, this produced a little blood. I thought everything was done and over for the next 25 or so days, but I had one last gasp as my husband calls it.
The pain was centered in a different place than it normally is - it was cervical/vaginal, radiating all the way out. I think the last time I had pain like this was when I was a child - I was around age 9 or 10 and had severe cervical/vaginal pain that left me screaming and crying. This was about five years before I’d even begin menses. My ma had no idea what to do - she gave me a pad with yoghurt to wear overnight, and my memory is that the pain dissipated. The yoghurt of course was because she probably thought I had a prepubescent yeast infection.
Anyway, the pain on Wednesday night was continuous for about 10 minutes, and then intermittent for the rest of the night.
Yesterday and today I was still feeling worn out, easily fatigued, with debilitating low back pain, but I’m getting better at working out the pain as soon as it hits - it’s always a matter of correcting my posture and doing a slow yoga type stretch. My shoulders hunch and my pelvis tilts forward, like most of the women in my family on my mom’s side. The lot of us have endometriosis and scoliosis. I have a tipped uterus, which probably also accounts for the pelvis tilting forward, because the uterus is tipped back.
My energy returned on Wednesday, and for the last two nights I’ve had a lot of trouble getting to sleep. My mind has the post-bedridden manic energy and wants to get things done, while my body is still saying, “Whoa, heyyyy, hang on there, I’ll be right there…”
This morning however I decided I’d ride my bike to work again. I’ve not ridden my bike because of chronic pain since August 31 or September 1, and I only have a one-mile commute to work. Just one mile each way! But it’s too much to ask of my body when the downtime comes for me. So I was very pleased to be able to hop on the bike again today. :)