Today went much better than the weekend went. I am so thoroughly afraid to try the medical marijuana again. I stayed on Tylenol 3 today. I took a total of three full pills.

I knew when my body was in pain, because the top of my skin would twitch, or my whole body would jump. Then it would take up to three full seconds for my brain to register that the twitch meant huge stabby pain was happening.
But by the time it got to my drug addled brain, all my brain had as a message to give to me was a faint recording of a scream, if that makes sense.

Had I not been on Tylenol 3, I’d have screamed in pain the moment it hit. Tylenol 3 is a good enough dissociative that it severs the pain signal.

Sometimes instead of my body jumping or twitching, I do feel the pain, but it’s so muted that I ride right through it.

And the whole time I was drug addled on Tylenol 3 today (as I continue to be, now), I was still able to read several chapters in a book, to converse on Yahoo chat, answer email and read through social networking sites.

This is not the case with the medical marijuana - with that stuff, I am in a disturbed and agitated state of near hallucinatory levels, and I feel the pain and can relay directly what the pain feels like, but I am too high to do anything about it. I must remind you that this seriously high state was achieved on Saturday by roughly ONE teaspoon of medicated butter, and on Sunday by ONE tablespoon of medicated peppermint mocha mix.

While on the medical cannabis, I could not take pain medication because that would adversely affect me, since I was already (in my opinion dangerously) high on the marijuana. And so I went mad from the gnawing pain and yet I was in a drooling stupor, then pacing the house, then drooling again.

My neighbor told me today that I likely got the wrong blend - that what I have is sativa, and what I need is indica.
I was told to ask for indica by another friend before my first visit to the dispensary. I just forgot is all.
Obviously I have to give it another try (because I always have to prove something to people - to the naysayers - that I really am trying everything my body can handle to treat the pain).

But until I return to the dispensary, it’s Tylenol 3 for me.

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