I Will Not Suffer In Silence

First, an update.
I woke up on December 1st at 1am in searing pain. I took a Tylenol 3 and was finally able to go back to bed by 2am.

I got up again around 6:45am and left messages for the managers at work saying I wouldn’t be in. Then I got up an hour later with my man and saw him off to work.
The rest of the day was spent in a drug stupor. As a result of said stupor, I kept forgetting my next dose at the right time, and I’d have to fight 45 minutes to an hour of pain again every 4.5 hours on average.
I think I took a total of five Tylenol 3 pills between 1am and 11pm yesterday.

A hemorrhage woke me up this morning. I’ve gone through two thick pads in an hour and a half and I’ve been birthing squid the entire time.

Add to this the fact that I sugar crashed despite eating two bowls of gluten-free peanut-butter corn puff cereal with soy milk.
I have a pounding headache and my eyes hurt and I’m trying to make chicken because I’m sick of eggs but I’m still sugar crashing and I need to take my Tylenol 3 for the pain and OH F*** IT I just stuff a protein bar into my gob and wash it down with the Tylenol 3 and half pint of water.

Now, I wait.

Meanwhile, it’s 65°F (18°C) and sunny outside.

Life is so unfair.

I wish I had a wheelchair so my man could take me out for a stroll.

Oh…I nearly forgot the surgery thing.
I called the doctor yesterday to confirm the January surgery and she said “ohhhh. It may already be too late.”
Which means she forgot to schedule it. I heard her searching through a planning book. She then said she hadn’t expected January to become so busy. She promised to get me the next available surgery date ASAP, and quickly ran through the calendar to predict my next two cycles. We agreed on the estimated dates and she dashed off to see if February 1st would work.
She called back a short time later and confirmed it.

So the new surgery date is February 1st. Pre-op is January 29th.

I am ok with her having forgotten to schedule me in early January for two reasons:

1. It would be right after the holidays and the workplace will be busy.
2. Last weekend I had found out that the Moon will be in Scorpio on the first scheduled date of surgery (previously set for January 11). This concerned me because Scorpio rules the sex organs. Surgery within three days of the Moon passing through Scorpio means longer operating and healing time. Complications are sure to happen. YES, I truly believe in that stuff, leave me alone.

So, I can do this. I can wait. Just two more months. And it gives me more time to save money for the time off work. I was worried about that, too.

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