The depression continues

Woke up this morning and the first thought that hit my head was:

*looks around bedroom*

*sigh*

“I think I’m ready to go back to work, now.”

All day today, I’ve felt like I’m on the vacation that’s gone on for far too long.

Despite the fact that up until Friday, I’ve not felt like I’ve been on vacation. As a matter of fact, I’ve been working very hard the past four months to get my astrology site to a state where it looks desireable for customers to want to buy a chart and bring their friends and family in.

But I brought this “vacation” mindset upon myself last week when I was cleaning the house and preparing myself for a long weekend with george.

George didn’t show up and I’ve gotten tired of waiting around for him to show up.

The problem with my thoughts this morning of being ready to go back to work is that I didn’t mean, back to work on the astrology business.

I meant, back to work in the traditional sense – working FOR someone FOR a steady paycheck.

However strong my urge was to look for work today, I realise that we’re still in a Mercury retrograde, and for me, that’s bad news when looking for, obtaining or having trouble on a job.

Mercury retrograde doesn’t stop until tomorrow, but Mercury doesn’t end up going forward in the sky until March 10th. Hell if I’m gonna get a traditional job willfully before that date.
Moving forward. That’s what I’d like to do in life.

I just gotta stay patient and remember that george hasn’t hit yet, and I’m still depressed, and to just take it easy on myself. I’m still in downtime. It’s a bad one with a week of emotional hell leading up to george. But I can get through this.

P.S. I’m freezing.

3 Responses to “The depression continues”

  1. Heather

    Nevermind the retrograde – if you feel like finding a new job, go looking. You never know what you’ll find. But this is me, the perpetual optimist.

  2. Steph

    You are TOTALLY the perpetual optimist!

    Well here’s something – I am optimistic that I will successfully become employed as a childcare worker should I choose to seek that out again. :)

  3. Heather

    I try to be! If I didn’t try, I’d freak the frack out.

    I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you. You’re so great with kids. Sonya keeps telling me “Nana will take care of me and Lou when you and Daddy go to California in the fall.” Such a smart girl. She knows she is taken care of, and wants to see the sea someday. :)