SO tired on the first day of spring

Yesterday, the pain got so bad that I took 2mg all at once, because the pain got so bad sometime between 6:30 and 7pm.
So yesterday, I had a total of 4 or 4.5mg for the whole day, which is about 2 and a half pills total.

Last night, I had tears in my eyes and a furrowed brow from the pain, waiting for the medicine to kick in, lying on my back on the bed with a heating pad under me and a heating pad on my pelvis, when my man came home from work.
He had two blue roses for me.

I burst into tears and thanked him and kissed him.

I love that man.

THEN!

After dinner, he bought me ice cream.

Yes, I know, I’m not supposed to have ice cream. But I was having one of those IT’S NOT FAIR moments, wherein I’ve been very good and I’ve not had milk or pop or caffeine or corn syrup or any of that garbage, and STILL the pain kills me dead. So I was all WHAT’S THE POINT, GIVE ME THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT.

And so he did. He got me ice cream. :D

And I didn’t have any worse pain after eating the ice cream.

The older I get, the more I feel that the endometriosis pain is not always related to immediate dietary input. The pain is there because it’s embedded and it’s an immunological genetic disease. No amount of food abstinence is going to make the pain go away. That’s how I feel lately anyway.

When I woke up this morning, I felt rejuvenated. I had so much energy, I didn’t know what project to start on, first. I was hyper. I felt myself spinning in place.

So I took a shower and was excited that the pain and bleeding didn’t ramp up after the shower like it’s done so many times before.
I went outside into the lovely sunshine and walked up the street to my car. I took my car to the gas station and filled the tank, and drove to the doctor’s office to request a note for a potential employer (I have an interview with another childcare staffing agency tomorrow).
I then drove to the local army surplus store to inquire about British WWII uniforms. They didn’t have any. Ah well.

At this point, I still had to go to the grocery to pick up a couple of items, and take my car to an auto wash, but this is where my body had enough excitement. I was ready to fall asleep at the wheel.

I came home and here’s where I’m at. I’m SO tired. I think I shouldn’t push my luck for the rest of the day. I need to save my energy for the interview tomorrow.

It’s a shame, because today is the first day of Spring, and it’s beautiful outside, and I’m not in pain. And yet, my body wants to sleep through the day.

It is what it is.

I will listen to the birds singing and just take it easy today.


1:25pm Edit: Ok I didn’t listen to my own advice. I walked up to the doctor’s office to retrieve the doctor’s note, which was only one mile round trip. I’m still not in any pain but my body is even more tired now than it was before. So, NOW I take it easy for the rest of the day. ;)

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