It’s PMS time ALREADY?!?

The last time I blogged was on November 9. The pain abated by November 11, and so I decided again to try bicycing to work. I seemed to be okay, so I pedaled to work again on November 12, despite the trapped nerve resurfacing overnight once again from all the stress I’m under. Speaking of stress, I began taking Ativan again – on November 11. :(

On November 13, I participated in my friend’s wedding. It was beautiful. :)

The grooms

The grooms

The cake cutting!

The cake cutting!

My husband

My husband



The only thing though, we all drank for about 12 hours that day. I had a total of 3 glasses of wine and two and a third hard alcoholic drinks in the course of those 12 hours. Not bad, but then again I shouldn’t be drinking at all with autoimmune disease. Hell, I got more drunk the night before, at the rehearsal dinner, heh. I think I drank 2/3 a bottle of wine that night…

During the wee hours of Sunday morning, a virus within me had activated and let loose on my maxillary sinuses. It felt like my runny nose coated my pillow. Ugh. I’ve been sneezing and blowing my nose ever since.

I tried resuming bicycling to work Monday and Tuesday this week, but with the virus making me excruciatingly tired (like, wanting to be in bed by 8pm), I decided to not bicycle to work today.

Because of the virus, I have renewed heightened sensitivity to dust, mold, perfumes and chemicals in general. This of course did not stop me from getting super PMS-tastic last night and using Tilex diluted in hot water to scrub moldy window sills – without a mask. WTF!!

Also, the biggest WTF right now is Mittelschmerz. It hit like clockwork on Day 8 of the new cycle – yesterday the 16th. And ever since yesterday, I’ve been trying to eat all the chocolate on the planet. Tonight, I wanted alcohol, and I’ve been imbibing on liquor in the house. The boozing is in part to the stress I’m under at work, and in part due to nightmares I’ve had for two nights straight.

This upper respiratory tract infection is not helping with my stress level. I know I shouldn’t be drinking, especially with a virus going on, and yet I have no control over my cravings and wants right now.

I’m experiencing mid-cycle pain, PMSing, and my period is already due by next Saturday, even though just last week, I was just coming off my period. This so-called 25 day cycle is for the birds.

So I just wanted to let you know where it’s at – I’m PMSing, chocolate-gorging, stressed out, drug-addled on Ativan and Benadryl, and totally having a pity party over the Blue Moon Menstrual Cycle this month.

Yeah, pity me. Wah. Boo hoo.

4 Responses to “It’s PMS time ALREADY?!?”

  1. moon

    Hi, it’s a pleasure to randomly come across your blog. You’re kind of like me, even down to your career area, as I’ve just started a placement in a preschool.

    I’ve had terrible endometriosis pain and symptoms since my teens, and even though I’ve seen a load of doctors and had various tests, (and been thought of as a bit of a hypochondriac), it’s only just been confirmed (at the age of 38!) that I have an endometrioma-like cyst on my ovary. Due for a lap in December 2010.

    My friend who is an endo sufferer swears by a wheat-free diet. Have you tried this? It doesn’t cure the disease, but has apparently almost eliminated her pain. Once I’ve had my lap I’m definitely going to give it a go.

    Btw I’m also with you on the sensitivities to mold, dust etc.. and on the intermittent need for chocolate and alcohol!! I’ll be reading more.

    Good luck with it all. :)

  2. moon

    Oh, I see from reading your FAQs that you have tried cutting out wheat, and a just about everything else. :( Oh dear, I get the feeling that I’m really at the start of a giant rollercoaster ride here…

  3. steph

    Yeah, I’m sorry. It is a long road. :(
    As long as you think of it as a puzzle, and that you have all of the pieces to the puzzle, and that you will see the big picture once you complete the puzzle…then perhaps that will help with motivation. I even buy actual 1,000 piece puzzles to put together while pondering my treatment and the choices I make…to make it a more concrete ‘team building’ exercise for myself. Coping mechanisms and strategies are good. I hope you are able to also find your window up uptime, nearly free or totally free of pain, where you can get stuff done and feel like you’ve lived life for a short while before the return of the pain. Some women only have a window of hours. Some have days. I usually have seven to eleven days a month…non-consecutively.

  4. steph

    Hi Moon! Thanks for finding me! Nice to meet you as it were! We’ll be surgery sisters in December – my lap is on 17 December.

    Do you have any other blogs or journals aside from the HubPages that I can link to – that is to say, do you blog about endometriosis? I’d love to hear more as you begin your self-inquiry journey with this illness. We endo sisters need to stick together!

    Much love,