“You’re one of my challenging patients”

I saw the physical therapist on October 29th. I woke up in level 9 pain that day, and took the day off of work.

I petitioned for and received a Norco refill on November 21st.

I saw the physical therapist again on November 25, after having been bedridden all weekend. We talked about the exercises I had been doing at home. I told the therapist that it actually made the pain worse, even between cycles.
She replied that I was the second patient of hers that week to say that the exercises made my pain worse. She then said, “You’re one of my challenging patients”.

I sighed and told her I hear that all the time from doctors.

She suggested that we try something else; a dilator. Now, the cramping and bleeding had subsided, but after an internal exam, external exam, and dilator use, it set off a bees nest of pain, and some bleeding resurfaced.

This was my first time using a dilator. To me, it looks like an ugly plastic dildo. It comes in various sizes – I was started out on level 2, which is bigger than a super sharpie marker if that helps for reference. I don’t know the actual sizing, yet.

I was then told to try a crystal wand, and that I could buy one on amazon.com. I still haven’t bought it. I remain intimidated by the thing. Basically, you insert just a little bit of it and hold it in place until your pelvic muscles relax around it. Then you slowly turn it, and let it sit again until your pelvic muscles relax around it. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I call it a torture device. I’m terrified of the thing. I’m not strong enough emotionally for this device just yet.

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